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Visitor to a Moonlit Churchyard 1790
Oil on canvas, 863 x 685 mm
Lent by the Paul Mellon Collection, Yale Center for British Art, New Haven
Eloise
scenario by Howard Taylor
Three shillings was the price for the gravedigger to save my everlasting soul. My stomach churns with nausea at the prospect of a horrific choking suicide, buried alive alongside the old knight’s skeleton. Ignoring the gravedigger opening the last of the tomb a blinding vision of Christ appears above me, confirmation of resurrection and salvation. Before I descend the ladder, I look down into the depths of my future grave, I see no reflection, only the same darkness I glimpsed in the eyes of the succubus who brought me this desperate fate.
I recall that first encounter; it was a new moon, dark clouds making it a pitch dark night when I followed a beautiful apparition down to the shore. She was a witch, a temptress, a ship wrecker, but as I looked into the eternity of her coal black eyes I saw a depth of suffering that god alone could interpret. I was overwhelmed by a natural desire to make her safe, though it was clear I couldn’t make her feel anything. I took her hand that was cool to the touch, and she said 'My name is Eloise’. How precious what followed yet I was getting sicker by the day. I learned the true cost of my folly in the ancient book of Khephra. Eloise was a succubus, who would take not just my life but my eternal soul, unless I died on consecrated ground on a full moon. My life alone would have been a small levy, to feel deeper and see further than I ever thought possible. How can so much pain come from something so beautiful, perfect and pure?
The gravedigger shuts out the moonlight and I think I hear something crawling around down here. My fate is set, eaten alive or not, I am beyond madness and I see life clearly. I shed no more tears because everything is as it was meant to be, pain was a sweetener for life. My eternal soul will move through its life span of pleasure and pain, grief and most importantly, love again and again.





